Befriending Chaos


I hide chaos in the closets of my mind,
fearing to reveal my inner turmoil,
my lack of order, my inability to control
the frayed edges of my anxieties.
When confusion and turbulence
upset the smooth tempo of my life
I wear the façade of pseudo peace,
unaware of burgeoning new life
pushing through worn-out securities.

Just as the Universe evolves with both
order and turbulence, dark holes,
colliding asteroids, and cosmic rays,
I too must embrace tsunamic upheavals
and developmental stages in my life,
knowing they contain unlimited
opportunities for transformation.

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